ADHD & Me

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    • stress & deadline paralaysis (like i just sit there - unable to move or work, doing other things, but its not willful like procrastination. a lot of it is to due with the fact that i’ve struggled all year, and now i feel like failing classes has a target on my back and i’m super scared) unless something shocks me out of it - which has become fewer things as i’ve lost confidence in being able to hit deadlines

    • rejection sensitivity is real - i get very anxious and sad when it happens/might happen - i.e. didn’t ask my parents for X because they might say no

    • being just generally unable to focus on things that aren’t stimulating enough like schoolwork (that’s why the type of adhd meds i take are stimulants! coffee is a stimulant, but i don’t love caffiene personally). i can’t filter out distractions very well

    • overcommit myself because i get excited about working something easily, and also get bored with something easily. for example, long-term projects are difficult for me for this reason

    • i get into a deep focus with things that are stimulating like designing things/programming/on rare occasions writing

    • unable to hit school deadlines because i’m unable to focus - but if you move back the deadline sometimes i won’t hit that because of the procrastination/i already have tons of shit to do/etc

    • i work on a not-now vs now timescale, so again, long term projects are an issue for me. i didn’t work on this 50 question biology packet that we had like 3 weeks to do till the night before, had to get an extension where he said no extensions, and finished it over the weekend but it took me forever

    • things take roughly 3 times longer for me to do, because again, focus issues

    • people constantly judge me for all this - because i don’t have a physical disability, I have a mental one. and that just feeds into my rejection sensitivity

    • i have a shit memory now when i have a lot of work

    • can’t focus on conversations sometimes, you’ll hear a lot of “wait what did you say, i wasn’t paying attention” from me

    • i get kinda irritable

    • i simultaneously want to be left alone and feel like i’m alone all at the same time lol (thats why slack is great lol, left alone but never alone lmao)


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