stress & deadline paralaysis (like i just sit there - unable to move or work, doing other things, but its not willful like procrastination. a lot of it is to due with the fact that i’ve struggled all year, and now i feel like failing classes has a target on my back and i’m super scared) unless something shocks me out of it - which has become fewer things as i’ve lost confidence in being able to hit deadlines

rejection sensitivity is real - i get very anxious and sad when it happens/might happen - i.e. didn’t ask my parents for X because they might say no

being just generally unable to focus on things that aren’t stimulating enough like schoolwork (that’s why the type of adhd meds i take are stimulants! coffee is a stimulant, but i don’t love caffiene personally). i can’t filter out distractions very well

overcommit myself because i get excited about working something easily, and also get bored with something easily. for example, long-term projects are difficult for me for this reason

i get into a deep focus with things that are stimulating like designing things/programming/on rare occasions writing

unable to hit school deadlines because i’m unable to focus - but if you move back the deadline sometimes i won’t hit that because of the procrastination/i already have tons of shit to do/etc

i work on a not-now vs now timescale, so again, long term projects are an issue for me. i didn’t work on this 50 question biology packet that we had like 3 weeks to do till the night before, had to get an extension where he said no extensions, and finished it over the weekend but it took me forever

things take roughly 3 times longer for me to do, because again, focus issues

people constantly judge me for all this - because i don’t have a physical disability, I have a mental one. and that just feeds into my rejection sensitivity

i have a shit memory now when i have a lot of work

can’t focus on conversations sometimes, you’ll hear a lot of “wait what did you say, i wasn’t paying attention” from me

i get kinda irritable

i simultaneously want to be left alone and feel like i’m alone all at the same time lol (thats why slack is great lol, left alone but never alone lmao)